The last few weeks have been tough. Charlie hasn't really been 'well' since we left the hospital post-g-tube - he always seems to have a fever or be lethargic or vomiting. We have made a few trips to emergency departments - once down to Sick Kids because we thought his side look distended (a sure sign of fluid retention) and once because of his 39.9C fever. Then, early Tuesday morning, things to a turn for a worst.
I heard him around 2:45 quietly whining to himself. This is SO unlike him - he's usually asleep or screaming for me to come in and snuggle. He is not generally whiny. But there he was, on the monitor, whining away. Quietly. To himself. I thought perhaps he had rolled on his g-tube, so I quietly went in, only to be greeted by a pair of wet eyes and outstretched arms. I picked him up and as I did so...saw vomit. Everywhere. With blood in it.
I put Charlie down, went and got Matt (who was sleeping with the fan on and wouldn't have been able to hear me had I called) and by the time I got back, Charlie was vomiting MORE (how the child even had any more in his tummy is beyond me, and the realm of science) and panicking in his crib. I held him as he threw up and then went into uber-mom mode. I detached him from his pump, carried him to our room, ran a warn bath and got in the bath with him. By this point, Charlie was so entertained by the fact Mummy and he were getting in the bath in our CLOTHES he forgot about being upset.
Matt called the cardiologist on-call, who eventually directed us down to Sick Kids. I say 'eventually' because he was just a fellow (cardiologist in training) and he had to call the real cardiologist to consult before he could tell us to come. By the time he called us back, we were packed for an overnight and at the door, waiting. We would have been going whether or not he called back.
I set the cruise at 120 km/h and we sailed down to Toronto. There isn't a lot of traffic at 4am. It's lovely.
From there, things were pretty efficient, although I had to get all Mama Bear on the emergency nurses. They were trying to put in an IV into Charlie's very dehydrated, 'flat' veins and couldn't get it in. The poor kid would cry every time they poked him, and then fall asleep between attempts. After two tries, I asked WHY they were putting in an IV. They told me it was 'just in case' he needed fluids later. So, I told them he wouldn't be getting an IV unless he actually needed one, and they could just find someone who KNEW WHAT THEY WERE DOING for the blood draw.
Charlie didn't get an IV, and they found the Vampire Nurse who got blood from his arm, no problem. :S
We ended up spending the night there (so, from 5am Tuesday to noon on Wednesday) but all of Charlie's cultures came back negative. It's been deemed a 'virus' (thanks, specific doctors!) and we're just to ride it out. We also got some of his g-tube healing issues worked out while there, and we also met the new cardiologist follow from Singapore who is LOVELY, and took the time to explain to us how Charlie's Ejection Fraction is measured. We really appreciated his candor and kindness, and the fact he didn't assume we were stupid.
We also found out while there that Charlie's BNP (a hormone variant that informs heart failure) is now in the NORMAL levels. Amazing. It's 72, which is great for someone who has been in heart failure before. When we were admitted last August it was 1100. :(
So, that's the news. I am ready for some major regular-ness. Eating, normal days, healing arms and elbows, and no more drama. Please.
No More Drama - Mary J. Blige
Tired of all this drama
You go your way
I go my way (no more no more no more)
I wanna be free
Broken heart again
Another lesson learned
You better know your friends
Or else you will get burned
Gotta count on me
Cuz i can garuntee that i'll be fine
No more pain (no more pain)
No more pain (no more pain)
No drama, no more in my life (no more drama in my life no ones gonna make me hurt again)
Why'd i play the fool
Go through ups n downs
Knowing all the time
You wouldn't be around
Or maybe i liked the stress
Cuz i was young n restless
But that was long ago
I don't wanna cry no more
No more pain (no more pain x2 )
No more game (no more games messin with my mind)
No drama (no more drama in my life no ones gonna make me hurt again, no more~)
No more tears (no more tears i'm tired of cryin every nite)
No more fears (no more fears i really don't wanna cry)
No drama (no more drama in my life i don't ever wanna hurt again)
Wanna speak ma mind wanna speak ma mind
Uhhhh it feels so good
When you let go
Of all the drama in your life
Now you're free from all the pain
Free from all the games
Free from all the stress
So find your happiness
I don't know
Only god knows where the story ends for me
But i know where the story begins
Its up to us to choose
Whether we win or lose
And i choose to win
No more pain (no more~, tired)
No more game (no more games i'm tired, i'm so tired)
No drama (no more x7)
Background Singers : (No More Drama) x4
I'm tired of all this drama
Go 'head go 'head
U demons getting out of my face
Go get out of my life
I'm about to lose my mind
Help me help me sing
Choir : (NO MORE DRAMA) x6
MJB: No More Drama
No more, no more, uhh. Yeah~
No more, no more drama
Ohh help me sing
I need a (peace of mind x3)
Yeah i need
Hide but nicely i need to know that u r free
No more dramax2
In my in my... life.