Just sitting here at the kitchen table with Shark Charlie, who is eating go,dish and cream cheese for breakfast (he did have a 1/4 croissant with Nutella, banana, raspberries and some old cheddar first. No one is nominating me for mother of the year for Charlie's eating ha it's, trust me.). ;) There is a lot of crunching and shark noises happening. We are currently obsessed with the Octonauts (SO MUCH BETTER than Toopy & Binoo) so there is a nautical theme to home life right now.
I figured I should do an update pre-Bop because who knows when I'll have time after she arrives? I'm hoping to update more, but than I've promised that before and we all know how that's gone. I've been home for more than a month already and am just getting to this now, and really only because Charlie's breakfast is taking forever.
So, I'm 38 weeks pregnant. I alternate between a few days of feeling OK (I can sit comfortably, sleeping isn't a total exercise in futility, I'm not a grumpy, patience-less asshole) to the opposite of all those things. On those days, I'm a real treat. Matt and my family are doing a good job is putting up with me. I save all my patience for Charlie, who gets what little I've got. He is being a general champ, although mostly that's because he is home with Mummy and doesn't have a clue what's coming next! :)
Bop is being good so far. She's quiet at night which gives me some hope for her schedule once she's born - Charlie was almost completely backwards for sleeping, which would equate absolutely no sleep for me if Bop was a repeat.
I sometimes think I should be filled with anxiety and guilt about Bop's upcoming diagnosis, but I'm not. I don't know if it's an avoidance thing in my brain or what, but neither Matt nor I have really thought much about the possible DCM diagnosis. I guess we figure if it happens, it happens, and until we meet Bop, we won't have a clue. I'm more concerned about overreacting if Bop isn't a good nurser immediately, or if she has some other normal-baby behaviour that I equate to her having DCM. The last thing one needs in those first few weeks is additional, self-inflicted stress. But we shall see.
Believe it or not, I'm more nervous about the birth! I have this nightmare that is ends in a c-section even though I had Charlie the regular way. It didn't help that I had a co-worker that that happened to. Who told me about it. In graphic detail. :*(
Charlie continues to do well. He's even been eating pretty well with limited help from us. We're pretty sure he's growing - he is definitely over 3' finally, so that was a nice milestone to pass. He starts school this September and is very excited about it. He calls school his 'job'! (Thanks, Matt).
I'll update hopefully once Bop is out. I'm hoping to do an update fairly soon after Bop is born, including pictures. After all, they do have wifi in the hospital. ;) Until then...
Snuggling with Buddy