Tattoo

I turned 30 a week ago or so. I was initially excited about turning 30, but Charlie's DCM really took over right before the date, so I ended up just looking at it as another day (one where I got presents, of course). I had a great couple of days (my birthday tends to turn into a week or more, because of all of the family and friend obligations we end up with. I am not complaining.). For my 30th, I decided I wanted a tattoo. I got one when I was 17 (it's a treble clef on my hip/butt area), but that was when I was still living at home and afraid of my parents. :) I decided I'd get Charlie's name because, after all we've been through so far, the kid's name should be inscribed somewhere on my body.

Matt bought it for me even though he isn't a huge fan of tattoos (he says he doesn't 'get them'). He says they remind him of death, because as permanent as we think they are, they are gone when we are. That gave me pause to think - my tattoo will only be around as long as I will be, so while it's permanent to me, I can see how Matt would think of it as being a reminder that at some point, he and I will no longer be here.

I digress - the point of this entry was to put up a picture of the tat, and just say that I am thrilled with it. This is something that I will always remember no matter what happens, and the tattoo is a physical reminder of the fact that we got through this together and intact.

Tattoo - Jordin Sparks

No matter what you say about love
I keep coming back for more
Keep my hand in the fire
Sooner or later, I'll get what I'm asking for

No matter what you say about life
I learn every time I bleed
That truth is a stranger
Soul is in danger, I gotta let my spirit be free

To admit that I'm wrong
And then change my mind
Sorry but I have to move on
And leave you behind

I can't waste time so give it a moment
I realize, nothing's broken
No need to worry 'bout everything I've done
Live every second like it was my last one
Don't look back at a new direction
I loved you once, needed protection
You're still a part of everything I do
You're on my heart just like a tattoo

I'm sick of playing all of these games
It's not about taking sides
When I looked in the mirror, didn't deliver
It hurt enough to think that I could

Stop, admit that I'm wrong
And then change my mind
Sorry but I gotta be strong
And leave you behind

If I live every moment
Won't change any moment
Still a part of me and you
I will never regret you
Still the memory of you
Marks everything i do

Just like a tattoo
I'll always have you