Proud Mary

A new year, a new perspective, a new situation.

Charlie continues to struggle with eating and is beginning to show signs of having figures out that he doesn't HAVE to eat. While he was sick he didn't eat anything for two weeks. It doesn't take much to get from that to the realization that the food must be getting into him somehow, and it doesn't have to go through his mouth. He occasionally takes some by mouth, but it's looking like we won't get up to where we were before his illnesses. The good news, though, is that even when we tube in a whole bottle, he doesn't throw it up! I don't know what changed, but all of a sudden everything is staying in and he seems much more comfortable while 'on the drip' as we call it. I'm grateful for those kinds of things.

As for me, I'm doing well. The new perspective thing is mostly just a change in me - you get in a situation like this and things that really bothered me before don't bother me at all. There just isn't time to get angry at people, or judge them, or decide they can't change. I think it's made me a better person, to be honest. Just more patient, more caring. I hope so, anyways.

So, Tina Turner's 'Proud Mary/Rollin' on the River' today, partially because I love that song, and partially because I feel like that's what we are doing right now - just chugging along with this new normal and heading downstream to the unknown.

Happy New Year.

Proud Mary

Y' know, every now and then
I think you might like to hear something from us
Nice and easy
But there's just one thing
You see we never ever do nothing
Nice and easy
We always do it nice and rough
So we're gonna take the beginning of this song
And do it easy
Then we're gonna do the finish rough
This is the way we do "proud mary"

And we're rolling, rolling, rolling on the river
Listen to the story
I left a good job in the city
Working for the man every night and day
And I never lost one minute of sleeping
Worrying 'bout the way things might have been

Big wheel keep on turning
Proud mary keep on burning
And we're rolling, rolling
Rolling on the river

Cleaned a lot of plates in memphis
Pumped a lot of tane down in new orleans
But I never saw the good side of the city
Till I hitched a ride on a riverboat queen

Big wheel keep on turning
Proud mary keep on burning
And we're rolling, rolling
Rolling on the river

If you come down to the river
I bet you gonna find some people who live
You don't have to worry if you got no money
People on the river are happy to give